I didnt eat till i got sick, i didnt laugh at stupid things on tv, i didnt enjoy the company of people i love... i sat, staring at the snow, missing the love of my life on thanksgiving. i despise being alone on the holidays, though im surrounded by people, all i want is the one that makes me the happiest girl in the entire world. why cant it just be simple. but i long for the day when i get to hold that special one and run my hand across the cheek of the one i will spend my entire life with.  how many times must i sit empty handed and feel surreal and empty hearted. how many times must i watch while people gather in couples and share their lives with each other, while im alone. the days and hours and minutes are uncountable, as well as the months and years.  one day i will be able to finally smile and embrace my own with warm arms, being one with love and serenity, until then i will sit and waits, hoping that it comes sooner than i imagine, and dreaming of the moment i will finally be happy.